Soon I will become one of those moms who works. I wish I could be a stay at home mommy but that's just not feasible right now. So, in a couple of weeks I head back to the wonderful world of bartending. Yes, I found a job that will take me, fat pants and all! I will be working on the pier. I will have an ocean view and will make money to provide for my tiny boo. I'm conflicted. On one hand, I'm happy I will be able to buy things for her and afford to pay my own bills I had before I got married. On the other hand, I think, to heck with it! Do I really need a phone or would it be better to just hang out with baby? I'm not sending her to daycare. My husband and I are sharing baby duties. I will watch her all day and he will watch her at night. So, I guess that's good. I'm just really going to miss her when I'm away. At least I will be away during the witching hours and when she sleeps and I get her all day when she smiles and plays. So, there is light in this. Just still feeling glum over the separation.